The Unexpected in Life

The Unexpected in Life

"I believe the most valuable thing a mother can teach her child is belief, confidence, and faith in a loving God—to reach outward and upward beyond himself for strength and courage—and to instill in that child the simple faith that he or she is a child of God with a purposeful life ahead. Life is filled with the unexpected: accidents, deaths, hazards, fears. Mother, father, the light switch, water in the tap may not always be there. But resource to God is always available." - "Favorite Quotations from the Collection of Thomas S. Monson," p.39

Life does go on, however bleek somedays may be, others are full of laughter and life, all are full of love.

We miss Grandpa Lawrence. This is the time of year we lost him. With all the rain this morning it feels as though the heaven's are crying with us. We miss you dad, grandpa, friend. See ya again.

Dad and Dandilions

I had to let some time pass before I could really add to this post. Me and my feelings. Where am I? It hurts too much. I still don't want to feel.

My kids hurt, and they miss Grandpa. Brian can't talk about it. How can I expect him not to be drenched in the pain of missing his dad? What more can I do but help them. I have put aside how I feel for so long.

I miss french toast breakfasts, walks, the zoo, picking up sticks. I miss having a dad so close, someone who loved me and never let me lie about how I was feeling. He always knew.

I miss the kids blowing the dandylion seeds on his lawn, and then seeing him out trying to pick the weeds out of his lawn.

Now the kids blow all the seeds on his grave, they thought grandpa loved the little dandylions because he was always picking them. They want him to have plenty.

Every night when the first bright star comes out, I think of him. When he died, the kids and I took a walk on campus. Jeremy saw the first star, he thought it was Grandpa looking over us. It has been Grandpas star ever since. I love you dad. I wonder if I will ever stop saying "wake me up, when September ends."