- rest comfortably
- think good thoughts
- be patient with yourself
- take it easy
- picture yourself well
- and remember...
- healing thoughts and good wishes are being sent your way
[thank you Aunt Liz and Grandpa!]
oh, and how could i ever forget Grandpas final words to me yesterday on the phone:
i laugh because even he knows that i DONT ever behave. well-behaved women rarely make history....and really, i just don't know how to behave. i have a natural rebellious streak that prevents me from behaving. brian calls it a smirk.
i smile. because i know how seriously loved i am. because of that love i dont feel pouty or inclined to be rebellous.
i will do my time. i will appreciate the time i have. hours or quiet, uninterupted pondering, reflection.
the loniliness today, being alone. i dont think i was ready for that. to feel this. the bustle of energy, the kids getting ready for school. brian hustling to be sure that all i needed was at my fingertips. and me lost, alone, laying around...weak.
i will behave. and be patient with myself,
and bask in all the pampering and love.
and i will reflect on how far my healing has come in one week.
i have a better perspective on the loss of my uterus, compared to the great blessings of the four children i have, and the years of life and motherhood ahead for my healthier renewed self. yes, greatness!
i can more easily sit up, physically my body is healing as hoped, i don't ache all the time, and already sleep less fitfully. the swelling is somewhat, ...a GREAT deal less, than 6 days ago.
i have a week of new memories, memories built on compassion, tender love, hope, and prayer. McG (director of We Are Marshall) talking about legendary heros said "adversity is the threshold to greatness."
i think i already knew that.
i know where i have been and as i sit here today, i have met greatness. in four beautiful children who call me mom, and one amazing man who calls me buttercup.
i may feel weak physically, yet my weary mind recognizes that in one week i am stronger for the adversity i have faced. all is well, and ALL will be His will. in the meanting i trust, and i will try impossibly in un stacie-like fashion to...