Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Brian's Birthday 2006

Jeremy really thought that his dad would want his "old" bat, so Jeremy bought a new bat for himself, "dad's old, he likes old things."

Clarissa said that daddy was antique so he would like this book!

Sam's gift was a puzzle, "old people like puzzles"!

Gavin stood off and laughed, he could see how funny his sister and brothers were.

Me??? I didn't influence the kids at all. Although Brian is much older than I am!


Last years birthday memories. These kids are lucky, they have a great daddy!


Saturday, April 8, 2006

April 8, 2006 - Mac Daddy

Grandpa Tidwell and the kids!

Grandpa Tidwell






Happy Birthday Grandpa Mac Daddy. We love you!@

Saturday, March 11, 2006

Letter from Clarissa

Dear Mom,
I love you. you are the best mom on earth. I am sorry for how I treated you I thought about how I treated you and it was not good for me to do that. I was wondering if we could eather have a sleepover tonight or if we could have one on Sunday because we do not have school on Monday. Or if we could go shopping on Monday. And I was wondering if when you go to JUPAN!!!!!!!!!!!!! if you could buy me some stickers because Abriel has some stickers that are from Japan and she brout them for show and tell and they are like bubbles full of water and they are stickers and they are so cool . I am very exited that you get to go to Japan in June that is asome and I still can not belive that DAD won that and gets to represent Amarica of MARK MILLER TOYOTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
write me back when you get a chance pin pal.

Your doughter,
Clarissa

Monday, February 20, 2006

War: Not a necessary evil

“War: not a necessary evil.”
by Stacie Lawrence


David Powell served two tours of duty in Vietnam from 1965 to 1967, one of the most senseless and dehumanizing wars in history. Americans don’t speak much of it because we pretend it didn’t happen. He states, “The following events come to my conscious memory uninvited. I not only remember them vividly, I re-experience them with all my senses:”
Froze with fright, standing up, the first time I was under fire
Watched two marines try to break open the skull of a dead Viet Cong with a large rock
Observed a marine intentionally shoot a girl four or six years of age
Watched the girl’s grandfather carry her into our line of fire, sobbing.(Powell)

Powell continues with horrific descriptions of his experiences, finding brain matter on a fence, seeing marines laugh as Viet Congs bleed to death, being abandoned, being shot, he was nearly trapped, and he was robbed. David watched a man shoot himself in the foot to get evacuated and heard the same man cry in his sleep when he was returned to the company. All this equates to vile and inhumane memories of one man’s experiences of one war as recounted in his selection titled Vietnam: What I remember.

What happens to people in war changes their whole being. They are affected by their experiences in a way that influences their sense of existence. These experiences become a part of their every day, every moment, every breath, for they have impacted them in a way that every moment, every thought, every feeling is shaped by what they saw, heard, did, feared, or prayed about. War is immoral, it is ultimately ineffective, and it is indecent. War is not a necessary evil.

NPR’s Morning Edition “Treatment of War Prisoners: When Does Law Apply?” posed the question of morality in war: what of their behavior is ethical, what crosses the line, and who makes those decisions? One caller suggested that many of the wars we have engaged in during this past century have really been found to be unnecessary. The caller indicated that the information we now have shows that our intentions in fighting were wrong. Look at Vietnam, a war that our society sees as a black mark on our history and yet we continue to engage in immoral acts of violence with no solid foundation, reason or purpose. Do we seriously consider the effects of wars on our society, families, and each individual? I think we do not. We engage ourselves more in the General Patton-like glamour and glory of fighting with honor, fighting for freedoms. Is there really freedom in seeing your friend’s face blown off, or sending home bodies of young fathers and sons, wives and daughters? Is there honor in knowing that you don’t have a choice whether or not to kill a child, or someone’s sister or father?

My grandfather, Cecil Hansen, served with a sense of honor in the United States Army Air Forces, stationed in Assam, India, with the Air Transport Command flying equipment and supplies, including bombs and gasoline to China. During his assignments he had many frightening experiences, flew cargo in hellish storms, had an engine catch on fire, and survived to be brought safely “home”. In his memoir A Hump Flight from Sookerating Assam, India to China,

Most hump pilots [pilots who transported cargo over the “hump” between India and China] flew their whole tour of Foreign Service duty without ever having walked down the narrow streets of a Chinese city. The whole operation there was geared to put supplies over the Hump which couldn’t be done with airplanes sitting on the ground in China. As soon as my ship was uploaded and we had eaten a bite, we were on our way “home.” Only once did I stay overnight and I would have preferred not to have had the experience. It was sad to see what the people now had to live in—bombed out buildings and streets littered with debris. (Hansen)
Back in India, he said, “I would try to get some sleep or perhaps go to work in the Navigation Briefing Office knowing that in a day or two, I would do it all over again. In a way it was hard work and Sundays and holidays were not days off. But there was a job to be done and I was there helping to get it done so that the World could be at peace once more.” He wrote of another flight in the chapter “Storm from Hell” when the fuel gages reached the empty mark, “I continued my silent prayer, until I felt the wheels touch down on the runway. Thirty-five air craft were ‘lost’ during that storm, and as I taxied to the parking area I was grateful to be home.” For a time, India was his “home”.

Left back in the United States my grandmother, Nina, a young bride had sent her husband, her future off, never really knowing where he was. She would be following his assignments but because the military was not as supportive as they are today of their soldiers families she would wander starving for a bite to eat, lonely, searching door to door to find a place to sleep. While working in a prisoner camp in New Mexico she was burned by a war prisoner with a cigar who thought she was a Jew. She was once told that her husband’s plane was missing and worried for hours just to be told that they were only seeing how she would handle the stress. She was threatened, and felt lost with her husband oversees and no money to call home, to eat, or place to sleep; only waiting. She would be awakened screaming from visions of planes crashing, thinking her life; her love, would never come “home.” Similar to my grandfather’s aircraft being out of fuel, spirits were empty as well. My grandmother wrote of a time, “My mind was ready to blow, nerves to burst, and my spirit was dead. I went to bed captured by an evil and frightening feeling of what this kind of world was,” a world of war. We don’t stop often enough to consider the ramifications to our people of engaging in acts of war? Our wars have damaged more than our soldiers, deficited more than our nation’s pockets.

Charles Frazier describes how men respond in returning from the carnage of war in his book Cold Mountain. Inman’s describes the deficit of his soul as “a spiritual journey of coming to terms with what he has done, with the innocence he has lost.” He further states “War took a man out of that circle of regular life and made a season of its own not much dependent on anything else.” Fire in the Hole by Dennis Tenety remembers, “I've seen bodies ripped to pieces by bullets, blown into millions of scraps by bombs, and pierced by booby traps. I’ve smelled the stench of bodies burned. I’ve heard the air sound like it was boiling from rounds flying back and forth. I’ve lived an insanity others should never live..." This is the carnage, the evil of war. The American Legion of Military Veterans now describes the effects of war as Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. During the Civil War it was “Soldier’s Heart,” World War I renamed it “Shell Shock,” World War II called it “Battle Fatigue.” The Korean War veterans were diagnosed with “War Neurosis,” and “Vietnam Syndrome” was the label for that generation; these effects certainly worth fighting for.

E. Housman’s poetry expresses the dishonor in not fighting, the idea of a coward’s funeral. The rhetoric used by Patten to convince soldiers to fight valiantly or be dishonored as Henry V indicated is appalling to me. Patriotic rhetoric used makes war seem inviting on film, we hear the words of courage and they build us up to want to fight, to have our share of the coveted honor, but if you had to watch your own child leave to fight a war that will someday be reflected upon as senseless would you send them to “Stand and fight and see your slain, And take the bullet in your brain” (Housman). Hell no! Do not suffer the idea of one man’s life to guard another. Use war money to build more prisons, cut off people’s arms for crimes, and hang people, but sending loved ones to die because we have allowed terror to become what it is is like a pissing match. Although Siegfried Sassoon [a man who served valiantly in World War I] did not protest the conduct of war, he did protest the political error and insincerity for which men and women are being sacrificed in his Statement Against the Continuation of the War. He said “I have seen and endured the sufferings of the troops, and I can no longer be a party to prolong these sufferings for ends which I believe to be evil and unjust.” As my grandfather said, “Soldiers fight wars, fight with honor, even wars that are not for the right reasons. Those in the military are there to do a job. They volunteer to go and serve, without questioning, so they can come home.” Soldiers fight for honor, for country. My grandmother said, “I lived through it, now I live with it.”

There is no “off the clock” time for soldiers or their families. What they have experienced becomes their full time job. The memories uninvited, the effects of their experiences are eternal. My grandparent’s experiences of war are part of every visit. Their innocence lost; they are removed from the very being they once were. They continue to be captured by evil and frightening feelings of what kind of world this is, a world with unnecessary wars. Charles Frazier says it best bidding farewell to fellow injured soldiers, “We’ll meet again in a better world.”

Thursday, January 26, 2006

33rd Ward Primary History for 2005

Thirty-third Ward Primary
History for 2005 - to be submitted annually to the Church for History records


To kick off this year’s theme and greet our children with their teachers we celebrated together December 30th with an activity at the church. As the children arrived we drew silhouettes of their face, side profile. Later we cut them out and with a mirrored image of their profile and created images of them looking at themselves. We asked the children to write, draw or color things that would best represent who they are. We expressed to them that their Heavenly Father knows them well, loves them, and knows their potential to become like Him. The children’s art was then hung in the primary room all year and we referred often to them during our lessons. The children had an activity introducing them to a better understanding of the gospel principles and the importance of living them as part of God’s plan for each of us. We talked a great deal with the children all year about his plan for each of them and how living the gospel standards daily brings us closer to Him.

This years theme was beautifully created and we really felt of His love for us and for the children as we taught them more about the plan of salvation, His individual plan for each of us, that we indeed are all children of a loving Heavenly Father, and that he desires for us to return to live with him someday. We really loved teaching the children the simple messages of the primary song, “I am a child of God”. Using the fourth verse, …”his promises are sure, celestial glory shall be mine, if I will but endure”. We expressed His love for each of them and that he knows of our struggles and trial, that as we endure he surely promises that we can be with him eternally. That is his plan and that was the testimony that we bore often to the children.

Our primary had many changes during the year. We began the year with Stacie Lawrence, President, Nicole Bennion, First Counselor, Jill Newby, Second Counselor, and a new secretary, Liz Holt. Liz had taught in the nursery and most recently been teacher of our 6-7 year old CTR class. Jill Newby had formally been our secretary for two years. Nicole has served for three years as a counselor, prior to that she taught our 4-5 year old CTR’s with her husband, Peter. Stacie Lawrence has been president for six years, serving as a nursery leader and sunbeam teacher for four years prior to that.

We had a change as follows within our presidency this year. Liz Holt moved in August and we called our new secretary, Angie Anger in October. Angie and her husband were new to the ward this year. They have a daughter, Emelia, who is in nursery.

Our teachers have included, Mark and Ashley Gurling - Nursery, Dave and Terri Thompson - Nursery, Justin and Nicole Myers - Nursery, Grant and Kate Johnson - Sunbeams, Scott and Stacie Webber – 4-5 year old CTR class. The Webber family moved this year after living in our ward for over 10 years. They and their children, Nikolas, Jake, and Levi, moved to Arizona. Staci had been a counselor in primary prior to teaching. Scott had been the Scout Master. Joseph and Angela Adams took the 4-5 year old class, and will continue serving in the Nursery for 2006. Our CTR 5-6 class began with Cole and Kelli Richins, with the news of expecting a baby and they needed to be released Dan and Caitlin Creer were called. Kevin and Christy Horn were called to help with our little Cody and eventually took on teaching the class when the Creers moved. The Horns moved shortly afterward and Jared and Alison Forsythe took teaching this class. Because of the extreme changes this year we have chosen to keep the Forsythes teaching this class for 2006. Karl and Holly Christiansen taught our baptism children this year. The class began with Jake Webber being baptized in March, Storm Speakman in August and finally Isabelle Richards in December. Each baptism brought wonderful opportunities in primary to remind all of the children, teachers, and leaders of our covenants with Heavenly Father, His promises to us and His plan for us. We enjoyed teaching in a variety of ways this first step in returning to live with Him. Karl and Holly have been serving in primary for 3 years as well. They began in Nursery, served as Sunbeam teachers, our 7-8 year old class and this year as our Valiant Girls teachers. Teaching our 8-9 year olds was Jeremy and Sarah Richards. They also have been serving in primary for 3 years. They began as Nursery teachers, taught our Valiant 9-11 year olds. They moved from our ward into a home this year. Sister Jeanine Pace was teaching our 9-11 year old kids early this year. When she was called to be a Relief Society Counselor, Brian and Heather Coleman began teaching our oldest class. Brian and Heather continue with us this year, with our Sunbeams, a challenge to change gears which they accepted with excitement. In our ward we seem to constantly have many changes and orientation opportunities with young couples who willingly serve in their early married years while gaining education. As leaders we enjoy each opportunity to meet with and visit quarterly our teachers. They enrich our lives and will go on to do great service within the church.

Our biggest change in primary this year was releasing Sister Becky Lee Reynolds as our primary pianist. Sister Reynolds has served as pianist in our primary for over 17 years, a record I am sure. She was a primary teachers, counselor, and leader for years before that. My husband can remember her has a teacher when he was a boy over 30 years ago. She is surely missed by us all, a faithful and dependable servant. Sister Reynolds wrote music that is in the Children’s Songbook. She would write music to our scriptures every year which always added to our teaching the children to love the scriptures. We are delighted to have Sister Becky Poulsen playing the piano now. As our chorister we began the year with Heather Harper. Heather previously served in the Nursery. She served with us for 8 months as chorister. Sister Stacy Smith was called to serve with Heather Harper as chorister. She was with us through the primary Sacrament program. When she was released we called Brother and Sister Spencer and Leslie Abdo. They bring a wonderful spirit to primary and desire to help the children gain a love and understanding of music. We are blessed by wonderful music leaders who help to bring the spirit in teaching principles of the gospel to the primary children.

We began in January with the baptism of Clarissa Lawrence. Clarissa was the first of our children to not be baptized at temple square. She was sad but found within herself the desire to be baptized regardless of missing that wonderful opportunity that she had witnessed by so many of her friends. She had looked forward to going to temple square for this beautiful occasion “her whole life”. We were thankful that she found a greater desire to be baptized “no matter where”. Our boy scouts participated in their Pinewood Derby during January. We have had wonderful scout leaders this year. Albert Aguilar and his wife Helen began as cub leaders. When Helen was called to Relief Society, Albert took on being the Scout Assistant Cub Master. Later this year he took on the role of Cub Master. Our activity day girls have participated in many wonderful activities building their testimonies and setting goals with their leader Joellen Wells. When Joellen and her family moved to Albuquerque this year, Rachel Solis took over as Activity Day leader.

February was filled with activities in Scouting and Activity Days for the girls. As leaders we met often to discuss the children and upcoming activities. When we meet as leaders we try to follow the Five Points, Prayer, Scripture, Gospel Principle, Music, and Testimony. Each time we meet we feel closer to each other and realize Heavenly Fathers hand in all that we do. We are thankful for inspired leaders helping us to watch over these little ones. We invited our parents to come to primary during Sunday School to participate in Sharing Time with their children. During this sharing time we taught them what our year’s theme was and how we would be using it to teach the children to understand Heavenly Fathers plan for each of us. This was my most favorite sharing time this year. I enjoyed using a tapestry to show how we can not see the beauty of the plan from the underside. We must realize that as we live our lives and struggle through trials, that we only see one side. We must trust Heavenly Father and his knowledge of us in learning from our experiences to someday comprehend the beauty of this life and our experiences. In turning over the tapestry the children and parents could see the beauty in contrast to the other side filled with unusual looking stitches. These unusual stitches indeed created a masterpiece. I had the children make a paper tapestry, which unveiled a message to them. When they had completed their paper tapestry it said their names and ….am a child of God. Each of them seemed to enjoy doing this activity with their parents. We sent home bookmarks we made with some embroidery threads and simple paper with the following poem.


The Weaver
My life is but a weaveing,
Between the Lord and me,
I cannot choose the colors,
He worketh steadily.
Oft time He weaveth sorrow,
But I in foolish pride,
Forget He sees the upper,
And I the underside.
Not till the loom is silent,
And the shuttles cease to fly,
Shall God unroll the canvas,
And explain the reason why.
The dark threads are as needful,
In the weaver’s skillful hand,
As the threads of gold and silver,
In the pattern He has planned.

It is always enjoyable to present to parents what we teach their children in primary, to give them information and offer assistance for strengthening their homes and families. It also gives them opportunity to meet teachers and feel our love for their children.

March is our month for Inservice for our teachers. We have enjoyed our inservices this year with Sister Becky Derrick. She always comes very prepared to inspire and teach us to lead and influence the lives of these young children. A few of the things we have learned this year include loving the children as the Savior does, reaching out to less active children and families, using the scriptures to teach with every lesson, inviting the spirit to teach through planning and preparing ourselves to be open to the spirit. Inservice is always a great opportunity which we enjoy learning more about our teachers and sharing ourselves with them. We try to meet with our teachers each quarter prior to Inservice to hear of their needs and to ask how we can better serve them.

April was time for our next primary activity and for preparing to plant our primary pumpkin patch again. This was our primary’s second attempt at planning a garden together. We taught on faith and had the children plant pumpkin seeds in cups to take home and care for. We sang again the primary song, “the Prophet said to plant a Garden”. We then waited a few weeks for the seeds to grow and the ground to be prepared. The children then had opportunities over a couple of weeks to meet me in the garden and plant their pumpkin seeds in the ground. We added corn and beans to the soil. The garden this year was a maze. The children could choose where in the maze to plant their seeds. If they were to get lost in the maze, they only had to “choose the right” to find their way out. We planted seeds for the children who don’t as often come to primary, and for our bishopric. The children then could serve others by weeding and watering their plants. We used the sign up method for families to take turns tending to the garden throughout the summer. We have a wonderful couple, Grant and JoAnn Warner who tends to the garden and who are daily helping the children and leaders as they share the responsibility. This couple does not attend church however they touch the lives of our children and leaders through their kindness and service to us in the garden. If any of the plants died, the Warner’s would replace them. They also maintained the weeds. The young men and young women also did service projects this year and helped to weed the garden. While they were there serving they helped to tend others gardens as well. The children had a successful garden experience. We grew around 40 pumpkins, the Bishops was the biggest. We also grew a great many other vegetables, which were donated to the Relief Society one Sunday during harvest time. Many gardeners, including the Warner’s donated much of their harvest to the primary to give to the Relief Society. We had a beautiful variety of fruit and vegetables to share. The children were really excited to see all the vegetables and fruits on the giving table that Sunday. One older lady came up to one of our 10-year old boys and said, “young man, are you one of the children that grew the garden?” He replied, “Yes.” She said, “This is the finest produce I have ever seen from a home garden. Thank you very much.” The garden is one of the greatest opportunities we have in our primary to work with our children and include so many ward members, even very inactive members participate. In October as we practiced for the Primary Program, we had the children pick numbers from a hat and then search the garden for their pumpkins. We had enough pumpkins to deliver to all the inactive children as well.

The summertime came filled with many activities, our ward camp-out, the Day’s of 47 Children’s Parade, and much time in the garden. In August we had a primary activity. Part of the activity was spent weeding. Other activities included messages from our teachers revolving around the plan of salvation, and making cookies and cards to deliver to our inactive children. We walked the cookies and cards to the children so that they could meet some of their primary friends.

In October for the Primary Activity, two of our 9-11 year olds asked to help plan the activity for part of their Faith in God goals. They made the flyer, planned two games, ordered the Halloween donuts for the treat and purchased milk, which later they turned in the receipt for reimbursement. They also called the teachers to remind them to call the children in their class. This was a fun opportunity to enjoy working with these two children.

During November the children were asked to prepare to sing two songs for the Christmas celebrations this year. Away in a Manger and a Pioneer song were chosen. The Ward celebration was held in December, and was a dinner with a program in the chapel. The feeling was wonderful as we learned and enjoyed reflecting on the life of our beloved Prophet Joseph, and the birth and celebration of our Savior.

During these final two months we had opportunities to share testimony through our sharing times and music and finished the year feeling that these children understand the great plan of salvation and that their Heavenly Father knows and loves each of them. We as leaders are so very thankful to serve in the primary. We are thrilled about the new theme and opportunity to teach the children to “trust their Heavenly Father and His son, Jesus Christ. Their promises are sure.” We believe that these are inspired themes that enrich not only the children but us as teachers and leaders.

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Film Review - Blazing Saddles

This film presents many anachronistic elements in addition to crude, racist and sexist material lased with toilet humor and foul language all in a very unpolitically correct form during a time when being politically correct probably meant knowing the United States Presidents in order of service

I first saw the movie when I was about 13 years old. I don't know why but I thought it was funny enough to quote on a random basis for the next 2 years. I was cool!!! Go figure. Watching it again gave me a complete sense of disgust. I could not believe that I lived in a society and culture where it would be okay to present a movie like this to audiences, and to think that it was actually “one of Mel Brooks' funniest, most successful and most popular films.” Yeah, it had its funny moments, but mainly the humor was just meant for ridicule.

In today’s society it should be controversial and embarrassing to say the very least. It was apparent to me that the film was made to make fun of racism during a time when blacks were seen as sub-servant to all others. There was not a negative black character in comparison to the indecent, stupid, particularly ridiculous white cast. I was young then but I remember feeling sorry for anyone who was not white because I knew it meant that they were not as good. I imagine that Mel Brooks and Richard Prior sat at lunch and made fun of how ignorant people really are to judge another by the color of their skin, so they decided to write a movie. And good for them, they served up a movie that created controversy then and we are still discussing it.

The form worked for the time it was made and for its purpose. It commanded audiences who had loved westerns for decades. The farcical nature of it was interesting in that they seemed to present polar opposites for that period of time within each character (a black sheriff, a racist town, a sex-obsessed Governor). Maybe the bad humor today is in that all of these are obvious within our humanity, our culture. The ideals that were once are just that…once upon a time…!

Blazing Saddles reeked of bad humanity throughout and made people take a second look at how ridiculous racism is. I don’t think it had much impact because for the time it was made the audiences who would have put much though into really watching it without being offended were probably the people who had the least problems with racism, and they would have laughed their asses off thinking of all the idiots who walk around really acting just that stupid. In actuality it probably had more truth to it then farce; white people can be really indecent, ridiculous and ignorant!

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Summary of 2005

Colleen's birthday firecake:


Picking the cherries from Grandpa and Grandma's tree:



Neighborhood barbques and celebrations:





Jeremy plays t-ball:




Clarissa cheerleading:


Gavin, Sam, and Scottie at the East Football game:

Temple Square for Conference:

Gavin's Art wins the Wasatch T-Shirt contest: Way to Go Gavin!

Vegetables given to the Relief Society from the Primary Garden:


So much to see about 2005, so little to say. I must confess that my journaling has become more sparse, and I am thankful for pictures, to tell the stories that I have forgotten to record. Lesson learned, and life goes on. So into a new dimension of story keeping. May I choose better record keeping as a goal worth pursuing.

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

Sam's Lost Tooth



Toothfairy,
This is THE bed where my tooth is,
leave the money and my tooth please.
Love, Samuel


Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Graveyard Activity for Achievement Day Girls

megan, chante, marissa, clarissa, carolyne, danielle, hailey
The girls with their awesome leader, JoEllen,
went to the Salt Lake Cemetery and
found prophet and apostles grave sites.
They also looked for interesting things
on the headstones, dates, and names,
and talked about heritage and ancestry.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Grandpa and Grandma's Cherry Tree


I wonder
if it was the
maraschino cherry!

Jeremy helping Grandma water plants.

Grandma, always working in the yard or in the house.
Get to work! Stay busy! Do your best, always!!!xoxoxxx

Sam loves the ladder.


Gavin, not afraid of heights, or hard work.
A sweet harvest to come!

my happiness!

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